the fog has lifted from my post-marathon blues and i am back in business as a human being again. good thing, since tomorrow is my marathon and my one-month. happy anniversary to grandma's marathon and greta, cheers! today, i'm writing a betsy hodgepodge list of thoughts as i'm still a tad bluesy and don't have all my capacities functioning fully quite yet. here i was championing my quick body recovery. my body soreness vanished within a week and i thought: i'm recovered from my marathon. i'm a miracle!
oh little did i know that the thick fog all along grandma's marathon, would continue to cover my mind and motivation even 3 weeks later. i've been very fatigued generally, my mind has not been sharp. i haven't been motionless, i've been lifting and flinging frisbees. i've been muscle strength training with my trainer for 2 straight weeks and playing a boat load of disc golf, but haven't wanted to lace up my sneakers much.
racing through my mind the last few weeks: why don't i want to run? is it just that the temp and humidity is so high that i will melt into a huge puddle of sweat? or is there more to it? i ran happily in sub zero over the winter but i'm steering clear of running in the 90s? will i ever want to run again? i will lose all my running fitness! i worked so hard training for the marathon, why would i throw it all away? do i just not like to run in the summer? can i never run a fall marathon? i can't imagine running 20 miles in 90 degree heat. oh twin cities marathon, you are out because of my heat-and-humidity-induced run ban. i already have another race in the books, so i have a reason to run. but what if i don't want to run anymore? ever?! i will have to stop eating ice cream if i stop running. oh my god.
i just popped a crumbled cert into my mouth. i was on a parade float on saturday and my roll of certs flipped out of my pocket onto the road. after i watched the float tire drive over my certs, i quickly grabbed the roll before 3 seconds and so i am still eating them on account of the 3-second-rule. each one is in pieces and is a crumbly mess in my mouth, so i'm not getting the usual satiation that i derive from sucking on a full cert, which i use to keep my hunger pangs at bay. alas, i cannot throw them away, as my heaps of hoarders piles of crap in my house can attest.
i didn't get to my hodgepodge list today. i'll just say that when i ordered my chipotle burrito bowl the other day, she didn't say what kind of meat. she said "we have run out of lettuce". i was frozen in panic. glanced back at alan to see if i heard her right. fumbled around with wringing my hands as i was at a loss about what to do when buying a chipotle burrito bowl and there is no lettuce. can i still eat a burrito? do i want a lettuce-less burrito? i said to alan, "i don't think i can eat a burrito without lettuce". and he jerked his head around and saw a few ounces of lettuce in a container and told the bearer of bad news that he will buy that lettuce. i wanted to shout, you are next to a cub foods woman who drove a stake through my heart, go buy some bags of shredded lettuce for god's sake! lettuce is what makes it healthy to eat here!
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